Image Regeneration: January 2011

It's far too often the times I think "we just don't get it''. As people across our own globe are praising God for living another day, we worry and stress about how we can get the next latest gadget and about the test we have this week. WHO FREAKIN CARES? Like honestly it's going to be fine. Work hard, do what you're supposed to and quit dwelling on it. There are issues for everyone, everywhere. Lets get off our pedestal and focus on the big picture. Reality check; IT IS NOT ABOUT US. It is about sacrificially living and being willing to do what it takes to LOVE. Yea it hurts and yes you will have haters who can't accept that you go above and beyond what this world requires because you care more about how you appear and how you look to others.

People will frazzle you and do what they can do de-rail you but the focus will remain the same whether we see it always or not. There will always be one purpose we are made to fulfill and how we get there is not the highlight of our life. We're going to end our lives at the same spot as if we stress about small, petty garbage or if we enjoy the journey and pick out what is important. It is SO UGLY when people lose their personality to their circumstances and I know this because I do it and look at myself asking "who am I? are my circumstances really dictating my life right now?" It'll be fine. There are people who have a lot of horrific things happening to them and they still seem to make it and even some with an outstanding attitude.

I don't want my world to become so small all I see are things that I will never remember.
I want it to be so BIG even my largest problem is still tiny compared to most of the worlds.
I believe when we let go of our own worries and anxieties we are left with one emotion, JOY!

Hi! Whoa it's been far longer than anticipated and every single day I hope I have but a minute to spare and blog quick and though tonight/today/multiple days looks better than any other- I had to give in. I've missed this whole shananigans but it has been really great to have a break, think and just do a life but I have definitely been itching to get back at this whole blog thing and read and write what's going on in everyone's lives!

     In the past year I have grown and learned more than I could ever of imagined and can only attribute that to the same God that gets me through every single day. He has molded me into a woman with a lot of work left to do but a woman that he has created do a divine purpose. I've learned to walk away from those things that seem most alluring yet keep me from prospering, I've learned to let go and let God, I've been broken and rebuilt time and time again until all I could was literally cry out to the Lord on my knees, I ran a 1/2 marathon, I began cosmetology school, I began dating my fabulous boyfriend/ best friend, I've learned it's not okay in any circumstance to condemn or look down upon another person but most of all I've learned in the past month more than ever, to love.

     I always believed love just happens or if it's meant to be it'll all just fall into place and everything will be alright. Family, future husband, friends... whoever, I was a firm believer that "whatever is meant to be, will be" and love would just happen as it was supposed. Well I was wrong and after hearing countless times "Do you love him?" I began pondering and searching for a meaning of this word we hear numerous times daily that is used in the same sentence as the latest OPI nail polish (the rapid dry is great) or I-phone.

    Naturally the greatest act of love ever performed, God giving up and watching his son, Jesus Christ to be slaughtered to death on the cross and tortured for days was my go to. This was an act of pure sacrifice for both the father and son for us sinners who are made clean by this. He loves all of us, no matter how ungrateful we are today, tomorrow or yesterday. I began to realize how unconditional this love is. There are times when I downright walked away from his hand that was feeding me and wanted nothing to do with it but was still lavished in love. Which leads me to the eternity of his love. He doesn't just love me during a season of prosperity or growth but ALL THE TIME, FOREVER. Overall it has been incredibly freeing and joyful in knowing that the one love we need we will always have and that literally there is nothing more perfect of an example for love than Jesus.

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