Can't Stop, Won't Stop.

Ooofda! What a busy but great week. It frightens me how scary fast times goes. I used to cry over it but now I just realize that I'm doing what I have always wanted to do and to just suck every second dry for what it's worth. Even when I'm not exactly where I want to be I know that God has me exactly where I oughta be.  I'm finally not worrying about failure but instead using my God-given talents and abilities and owning my work. I did this absolute best highlight of my life this week and it is because I told myself I was going to trust my gut and not allow any instructor or doubt determine my results.

I need to get to sleep as I am not feeling 100% and have wedding escapades to attend this weekend. Life is too short to not savor every last minute. God is Good.

4/21

Today we heard DeeDee Crossett, the president and founder of San Francisco school of Esthetics and Cosmetology. She gave us a lot of vauluable information and taught us things for both the business and technical side. I learned that"Millenials" or my generation are about 30% single children which explains why so many people need there alone time, 75% grew up with working mothers which is why so many women expect to work and also that we like to be on our phones and have freedom of expression.

I also learned how to texture long hair in multiple ways! I did a full highlight, tone, cut and style so am exhausted.

Good night.

4/20 Learnings

Last night I learned that when my mama said "pick and choose your battles" it was subjective and means someone else may choose a battle that I don't think is a battle.
Today I learned from a few clients that age is a natural process and it's better not to fight it.
I re-learned that I was never promised the good life but a life that God perfectly designed for me knowing only I could carry it out.
I learned how to cut hair around the ears.
I learned that not everyone will like me and that is okay.
I learned that as much as I try and resist what I know is right- God will always reveal it to me, it's a matter of how much I'm going to fight it before he does.
I learned that life is full of trials and we have one of two options 1. accept it, learn from it and move on or have a self-pity party.

Unfolding

Okay here it goes... this is going to be (for me) a very emotional post. As you (if anyone even reads this) may have noticed by blogging has nearly ceased and that is for a myriad of reasons but daily I'm reminded of one particular reason. I have learned more in the past 6 months than EVER in my life. I just sit down and think about it and literally begin to weep. Weep because of how long I fought the will of God for my own selfish reasons, waiting for four years before I finally gave up my own justifications of why beauty school would need to take a back seat and  how making money in a successful mainstream career would be the best for me though now that I've started beauty school I know it's where I'm supposed to be. I've learned that to love isn't convienent and always the first thing I want to do but it's what ultimately brings me the most joy and God the most Glory. I've learned that I can't control everything or really anything and it ends up sucking me dry of any life and personality rather than giving it to God first thing. I've learned that some struggles never go away and will ALWAYS be prevalent and they will drag you down so far that you don't even see what reality is. I learned it's NOT SEXY to be bony even if you feel sexy.  I've learned I'm a woman with curves and not a girl anymore. I've learned it's okay to have some problem areas if you are doing what you love and living PASSIONATELY because at the end of the day when I know I made an impact on someone's life I could care less if I got in the best workout for the day. Some things CAN WAIT.  I've learned that life ain't always easy and some days I would love to relax and have a few moments to myself but this is the life I've been given so to complain about it is making it a whole lot harder. I've learned even the people who have it all from the outside, have just as many battles if not more as everyone else. I've learned that the people with the most money seem to be the most unhappy. I've learned that how a woman was brought up my her father affects her body image, self-worth, trust with a man, ability to accept love and every facet of her life. I've learned that it will ALL WORK OUT for the best and to just accept that. Most importantly I've learned that this life goes REALLY fast and I want to do what MATTERS most not what feels right or seems cool. To cease every second I've been given, LAUGH, cry and not to let fear conquer me but PROPEL me.

I've learned life ain't so bad with a boyfriend like so.

And so, dear brothers and sisters, I plead with you to give your bodies to God because of all he has done for you. Let them be a living and holy sacrifice—the kind he will find acceptable. This is truly the way to worship him. -Romans 12:1 NLT