4/26-27 Learned this

 So lastnight since I was wiped when I went to sleep after a full day at school and talking things over with the roomie about a spat we got into the week before and going to the gym thereafter... I didn't get a chance to post but learned a lot.

4/26 At school I learned how to do fingerwaves and that they are extremely difficult, thermal straightening which is very tedious yet effective and I also got a 100 on my Anatomy and physiology exam which is the last exam of my cosmetology career before we start reviewing for state boards, I also got a review on our past Salon Building presentation and my teacher told me my presentation skills were outstanding and I really "took charge" which was a huge compliment being I could not public speak even a year ago and now I'm starting to enjoy it.  After school my roommate (lets call her Jan)  and I talked and really got to work to the bottom of everything that was hinder our friendship and relationship of living together. I wrote everything down prior to this confrontational meeting and found it really kept things from getting irrational and emotional but kept us focused on efficient with our time. I've been really convicted of how I use my time lately and setting time limits on EVERYTHING in including conversations, coffee dates, ect; have proved to be very successful and allowed me to keep my priorities straight.  I will be honest in saying in this confrontation with Jan it took me a week to get to the point of being able to talk it out. After I forgave her a few days ago I was finally able to find the worth in the situation and how we could each grow from it. I realized living with another person is like getting microdermabrasion and bringing all the junk to the surface... the good and the bad stuff. Everything in the past, the way one was brought up and how they handle everyday situations is evident in the home. I realized I tend to kind of mentally analyze when I come home instead of discuss my day in vivid detail. I went to sleep this night very invigorated and ready to tackle today.

4/27: Today I went for a run only find out how miserable my runs are becoming.. not sure why but could be due to my strength training/sleep/ not much time to run anymore. My first client was a sweet woman who had celiac disease and many health conditions, as well as going through a divorce, having her house foreclosed and starting a new job... it was at that moment I was reminded how absolutely blessed I am to have even a part of these people's lives while they are in my chair. It is not about me but about them and how I can serve them.

later we took a client for a single color who was a school teacher and we helped price all the retail. I finished the night talking with the bf and now I'm here far past the bed time I had intended but once again that's life and we start school an hour earlier.

I'm realizing after writing my daily doings my life is a lot more full of God's little surprises than I would of imagined. Life is too beautiful to oversee the small things.

Easter Weekend RECAP

    Real real real quick recap (as I'm trying to get to bed by 11:30pm every night this week so I'm well-rested) on life these past few days. Friday night we went to the best place ever, Pita Jungle for Good Friday dinner, Saturday after work I went for a run which was very hot and following that we went to Target and Barnes and Noble so I could study then went to dinner at BJ's which is another one of our fav's, following that we hung out with some of our favorite pals. Sunday we went to the 9am service and celebrate our risen King, Jesus and ate a DELICIOUS breakfast at Cracker Barrel for my first time and this was our spread; (super blurry as it is a phone pic but you get the idea)

and following all this delicous food we went to the lake:

Well it's 4 minutes past my bedtime and I have to get up in less than 7 hours for another week of school. It's my last week of zone 4!

4/21

Today we heard DeeDee Crossett, the president and founder of San Francisco school of Esthetics and Cosmetology. She gave us a lot of vauluable information and taught us things for both the business and technical side. I learned that"Millenials" or my generation are about 30% single children which explains why so many people need there alone time, 75% grew up with working mothers which is why so many women expect to work and also that we like to be on our phones and have freedom of expression.

I also learned how to texture long hair in multiple ways! I did a full highlight, tone, cut and style so am exhausted.

Good night.

4/20 Learnings

Last night I learned that when my mama said "pick and choose your battles" it was subjective and means someone else may choose a battle that I don't think is a battle.
Today I learned from a few clients that age is a natural process and it's better not to fight it.
I re-learned that I was never promised the good life but a life that God perfectly designed for me knowing only I could carry it out.
I learned how to cut hair around the ears.
I learned that not everyone will like me and that is okay.
I learned that as much as I try and resist what I know is right- God will always reveal it to me, it's a matter of how much I'm going to fight it before he does.
I learned that life is full of trials and we have one of two options 1. accept it, learn from it and move on or have a self-pity party.

Unfolding

Okay here it goes... this is going to be (for me) a very emotional post. As you (if anyone even reads this) may have noticed by blogging has nearly ceased and that is for a myriad of reasons but daily I'm reminded of one particular reason. I have learned more in the past 6 months than EVER in my life. I just sit down and think about it and literally begin to weep. Weep because of how long I fought the will of God for my own selfish reasons, waiting for four years before I finally gave up my own justifications of why beauty school would need to take a back seat and  how making money in a successful mainstream career would be the best for me though now that I've started beauty school I know it's where I'm supposed to be. I've learned that to love isn't convienent and always the first thing I want to do but it's what ultimately brings me the most joy and God the most Glory. I've learned that I can't control everything or really anything and it ends up sucking me dry of any life and personality rather than giving it to God first thing. I've learned that some struggles never go away and will ALWAYS be prevalent and they will drag you down so far that you don't even see what reality is. I learned it's NOT SEXY to be bony even if you feel sexy.  I've learned I'm a woman with curves and not a girl anymore. I've learned it's okay to have some problem areas if you are doing what you love and living PASSIONATELY because at the end of the day when I know I made an impact on someone's life I could care less if I got in the best workout for the day. Some things CAN WAIT.  I've learned that life ain't always easy and some days I would love to relax and have a few moments to myself but this is the life I've been given so to complain about it is making it a whole lot harder. I've learned even the people who have it all from the outside, have just as many battles if not more as everyone else. I've learned that the people with the most money seem to be the most unhappy. I've learned that how a woman was brought up my her father affects her body image, self-worth, trust with a man, ability to accept love and every facet of her life. I've learned that it will ALL WORK OUT for the best and to just accept that. Most importantly I've learned that this life goes REALLY fast and I want to do what MATTERS most not what feels right or seems cool. To cease every second I've been given, LAUGH, cry and not to let fear conquer me but PROPEL me.

I've learned life ain't so bad with a boyfriend like so.

And so, dear brothers and sisters, I plead with you to give your bodies to God because of all he has done for you. Let them be a living and holy sacrifice—the kind he will find acceptable. This is truly the way to worship him. -Romans 12:1 NLT

small world

It's far too often the times I think "we just don't get it''. As people across our own globe are praising God for living another day, we worry and stress about how we can get the next latest gadget and about the test we have this week. WHO FREAKIN CARES? Like honestly it's going to be fine. Work hard, do what you're supposed to and quit dwelling on it. There are issues for everyone, everywhere. Lets get off our pedestal and focus on the big picture.  Reality check; IT IS NOT ABOUT US. It is about sacrificially living and being willing to do what it takes to LOVE. Yea it hurts and yes you will have haters who can't accept that you go above and beyond what this world requires because you care more about how you appear and how you look to others.

    People will frazzle you and do what they can do de-rail you but the focus will remain the same whether we see it always or not. There will always be one purpose we are made to fulfill and how we get there is not the highlight of our life. We're going to end our lives at the same spot as if we stress about small, petty garbage or if we enjoy the journey and pick out what is important. It is SO UGLY when people lose their personality to their circumstances and I know this because I do it and look at myself asking "who am I? are my circumstances really dictating my life right now?" It'll be fine. There are people who have a lot of horrific things happening to them and they still seem to make it and even some with an outstanding attitude.

  I don't want my world to become so small all I see are things that I will never remember.
I want it to be so BIG even my largest problem is still tiny compared to most of the worlds.
I believe when we let go of our own worries and anxieties we are left with one emotion, JOY!

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Hi! Whoa it's been far longer than anticipated and every single day I hope I have but a minute to spare and blog quick and though tonight/today/multiple days looks better than any other- I had to give in. I've missed this whole shananigans but it has been really great to have a break, think and just do a life but I have definitely been itching to get back at this whole blog thing and read and write what's going on in everyone's lives!

     In the past year I have grown and learned more than I could ever of imagined and can only attribute that to the same God that gets me through every single day. He has molded me into a woman with a lot of work left to do but a woman that he has created do a divine purpose. I've learned to walk away from those things that seem most alluring yet keep me from prospering, I've learned to let go and let God, I've been broken and rebuilt time and time again until all I could was literally cry out to the Lord on my knees, I ran a 1/2 marathon,  I began cosmetology school, I began dating my fabulous boyfriend/ best friend, I've learned it's not okay in any circumstance to condemn or look down upon another person but most of all I've learned in the past month more than ever, to love.

     I always believed love just happens or if it's meant to be it'll all just fall into place and everything will be alright. Family, future husband, friends... whoever, I was a firm believer that "whatever is meant to be, will be" and love would just happen as it was supposed. Well I was wrong and after hearing countless times "Do you love him?" I began pondering and searching for a meaning of this word we hear numerous times daily that is used in the same sentence as the latest OPI nail polish (the rapid dry is great) or I-phone.

    Naturally the greatest act of love ever performed, God giving up and watching his son, Jesus Christ to be slaughtered to death on the cross and tortured for days was my go to. This was an act of pure sacrifice for both the father and son for us sinners who are made clean by this. He loves all of us, no matter how ungrateful we are today, tomorrow or yesterday. I began to realize how unconditional this love is. There are times when I downright walked away from his hand that was feeding me and wanted nothing to do with it but was still lavished in love. Which leads me to the eternity of his love. He doesn't just love me during a season of prosperity or growth but ALL THE TIME, FOREVER.  Overall it has been incredibly freeing and joyful in knowing that the one love we need we will always have and that literally there is nothing more perfect of an example for love than Jesus.

Lately

I've returned from a Christmas here...

Name that city... yep Seattle

with Him...

Poulsbo Island, Washington.

Returned back to my beautiful home...

These sunsets never get old

And continue to do what makes me happy...

Cutting his hair.

"Most important of all, continue to show deep love for each other, for love covers a multitude of sins."

-1 peter 4:8